you red shifting bastard
how did we get here
how did I allow you
me the two of us
to spit into this vortex
as if seduction were not enough
we parse ourselves too ungenerous to give
to unaccustomed to receive
my need for the curve of you to call home
my need for your words of love
nothing but contrails and the full moon rises
December
the if onlys crushed after the frost
every leaf will crumble
every rose will crumble at your touch
winter solstice will come alone
and that will be the best of it
a long time ago my lover and I
hiked through the snow for foxfire
solstice
solstice again first light
at last
if I said I have lived more lives than you
it would be true
if I said you have fucked more women than me
it would be true
if I said I wanted you to love me
beyond the bounds of reason
because I am alone
it would be true
not enough
even skating the razor of proof
mistletoe is a parasite you know
we find it when the trees lose their leaves
it's true nature revealed
I cannot say but shit we fucked like electrons
in a super collider
orgasms spilling quarks to the universe
apparently that was not enough
for you
